“To see them in that condition is unbearable," Proctor says.
It’s an overwhelming loss that he is still trying to comprehend.
"It’s still not real,” he says. “I haven't even begun to deal with Cheyenne and Cherish, or even Marlo."
The accident happened last Wednesday night along the winding, two-lane Sandbridge Road. It was spring break for the six kids in the car. His fiancée, 38-year-old Marlo Bayot was driving them home from the beach. Proctor says he did not want them to go to the beach that day.
"I was like 'It's too cold,” he recalls saying to his kids that day over the phone. 'I’ll take you out there maybe Saturday when I’m off. I'll take you out there.'"
Investigators say Bayot swerved off the road, over-corrected and was t-boned by a pickup truck, forcing the sedan into a ditch. Court documents reveal Bayot smelled of alcohol and was speeding, going nearly 30 miles an hour over the limit.
Proctor says those details are too much to handle.
"That would be devastating,” he says. 'If she was going that fast?' “If she was doing anything like that."
Bayot and 14-year-old Cheyenne Proctor, who have both died, were riding in the front. Police say the two were the only ones wearing seat belts in the car. All five children in the back were not buckled up.
"I didn't know that everybody was going to be riding like that in there," Proctor says.
10-year-old Cherish Proctor was thrown from the car. She later died at the hospital--along with 13-year-old Gabriel Proctor.
As police continue their investigation into the crash, Proctor is focused on making sure the three remaining survivors stay alive.
"I want to break down but I don't have the room for that right now,” he says. “I have to take care of them."
Proctor says funerals for the three children will be this Saturday and Bayot's will be next week.